And suddenly you are part of that world. Of that absurd, unfair and out of place world and you tell yourself that you do not want to be the protagonist of what is happening, that it is not about you, that it cannot be happening to you. Not you, no, your life is different, it has nothing to do with this.

You try to sleep and you think that tomorrow everything will be the same as before…

Do not leave for tomorrow what you can say today, a famous saying, right? If you feel the need to say I love you, say it! Say it right now and look into their eyes, pick up the phone, do it and the satisfaction of hearing your words will not be greater than the feeling of peace of saying those words to the one you love the most.

If you feel the need to hug that person that you love madly or even that sometimes you feel distant and out of fear, out of pride, out of objection, you don’t do it – do it today, don’t leave it for tomorrow.

And so, because I don’t sleep, because I don’t want to let it go, because my child, my light, the joy of my house, the serenity of my night and the pride of my life can’t have left, just like that, this must be heard. Listen to the voice, the cry for help, the impotence and pain that all of us who have suddenly had our Oscar taken from us feel, because he belonged to all of us and I want to be the voice that expresses the torment, the anger and the darkness in which we find ourselves, the impotence and pain of feeling, of knowing that they have torn him out of our lives, that that damn operating room with his lucky number, number 7, abandoned him to his fate. They did not give him a chance to fight. They did not give him tools to defend himself against the incompetence, neglect, arrogance of someone who has not known how to do their job and left a being of light to his fate. He took away 18 years of life from a defenceless person, he was left there, alone and without help.

And that’s why I am starting this blog so that anyone who wants, can know who Oscar was, and who he is for us, his 18 years of life and his last moments with us.

So happy!

Finally, the longed 18 years!

Just 1 month ago he was taken from our home forever and although we feel his presence by our side, I know that we cannot touch him, we cannot listen to his stories, his experiences and his craziness.

My fight goes against everyone who had it in their hands the power to return him to me on that March 29, and instead they responded: «We don’t know what happened»….

Here begins my story that I will be telling when I have the strength to do so. I also want you to meet Oscar, my «tuti.» A courageous, faithful, noble being of light with values, as a person, worthy of having known.