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32. Dear grandson
Dear grandson: When I think of you, and I do often, I lose track of time and I cannot believe that a year has passed since that fateful day, because in my mind those images are still engraved and the memories of those terrible hours we were waiting for the resurgence of a life, which
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29. One more night walking with Max
And suddenly the knot becomes tense, tight, the food doesn’t go down but the tears do. One of those times you share pain, sorrow and deep desolation. And you don’t know whether to cry with it or keep it together, she is your mother and you put up with it; you don’t know why you
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20. Neither day nor night
5 in the morning, Saturday. I was thinking of doing the «ronso» as we used to say, to be lazy, put off waking up and have a lie-in in bed with no pretensions, no plans. How cool it was to have no pressure to get up, how we liked to be in bed like bears.
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18. Each to our own
No matter what day we are on, there are no dates more difficult than others, but we do remember with great regret these days 29, 30, 31, 1, 2… and even a week from the terrible moment until your funeral as the most difficult days to remember in my life, my heart shrinks and that
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16. Summers in the retina
This post has a thousand images in my memory. Every summer before having you, with your sister, and then with you, have been a different adventure with simple and special details every year; Asturias, Huelva, Mexico, Menorca, Prague, Andalusia and so on until completing 18 summers with you. From each place you came back with
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13. Letter from your yayo
Dear Oscar: The days go by without you. Three months now and the memories of your life come and go endlessly. There are many in your 18 years. Many, very beautiful and very endearing. By remembering those memories and seeing you in the company of so many people, they give us an idea of why
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12. Three months without you
Although today is one more day without you, waking up knowing that a part of you is missing, just a Thursday, I can’t help but think that 3 months ago today I saw you leave on a stretcher and I never saw your little eyes again. They took away what was vital in our lives.
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11. Solitude
Solitude is difficult to explain, because imagining it is just an illusion. Understanding that this absence, this emptiness cannot be filled by anything, by nothing new; I will probably fill other voids, but not that one, the hole left by the shot to my heart cannot be filled. I know that my interior is changing.
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09. A new day and life goes on.
Another day without you is an empty time where you think there is nothing worth saving for the memory. An inexplicable emptiness. You feel soulless, lifeless, without goals or future, even when surrounded by people. And yes, I know that life goes on, but how difficult it is without you. Without you, a faithful friend
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07. 72 hours after his death. Donation cancelled.
Until now I have never understood the true meaning of “shock” (disturbance, trauma, impact). Now I understand the reason why we weren’t able, on Wednesday night, when they told us, “We don’t know what happened but he’s in a coma», to get hold of them and tell them, “No one goes anywhere until you tell
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