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50. Moments with You
And along the way, the journey fills with nostalgia. It’s hard to pack the car without your things, once again. To buy the sweets you liked or to argue over the playlist. Now it’s me who chooses music that brings me closer to you. I allow myself to shed a few tears for what could
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45 . An angel in my tree
With everything that stirs us up again, these dates filled with past moments – funny images, impromptu theatricals by the little ones, dancing, and the spark of excitement in the eyes of the young and not-so-young – it’s hard… A simple “happy holidays” feels, as I say, very “Grinch-like.” It’s not that it’s unappreciated, but
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40. To Oscar
There are those who express and share their feelings about their grief and feelings, about a sudden and traumatic blow. There are those who keep those thoughts to themselves. Others unburden themselves in private, grieving for an absurd world that truncates the happiness of many with the absence of a few. We are all deserving
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31. In the memory of a child, no one dies
I said in a post that I would talk about friends, and possibly one of the most difficult blog entries to express is this one. Because they are family, you take it for granted that they will be there, but when it happens you don’t know how happy I am to be able to have
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26. Starting from scratch
Today I don’t have the strength to express my feelings, I’ll leave it for another day, another month, another year. 2023 is so indelibly etched in fire that it has become my Achilles heel. Today I wish an immediate future, that is to say, a NOW full of good wishes for my big family, the
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25. Christmas. Part 2
It’s a coincidence that Christmas Day is the same day as my entry, the 25th. What I thought would be a way of venting my pain and letting people know who Oscar was and who he is for us, has become a whirlwind that has pushed me steadily with more than 47 thousand visits to
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24. Christmas. Part 1
Today I went outside. I don’t remember the last day I went out, to be touched by the sun, to wear a smile and dive into decoration stores. I used to love looking for beautiful things and imagining them at home. I can’t remember putting on my makeup calmly and thinking about a fabulous day.
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21. Today is the 13 th of October
At the beginning of the year you said you were going to celebrate your birthday for 4 days,great, it’s Friday with a 4-day long weekend, perfect. Today we feel your absence and the emptiness left without you, which fills every room in the house. Today I would hug you tighter than other days, kiss you
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18. Each to our own
No matter what day we are on, there are no dates more difficult than others, but we do remember with great regret these days 29, 30, 31, 1, 2… and even a week from the terrible moment until your funeral as the most difficult days to remember in my life, my heart shrinks and that
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17. And suddenly
And suddenly I want to tell you something I heard in the car. I saw that programme you liked or simply a meme that only you would understand and it stays there… in draft… because I don’t have you and I don’t know how to get it to you. And suddenly I say to myself…(…)
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15. Today I want to write to you
Today I am writing to you Oscar, perhaps the most difficult letter, although I hope not the only one. I want you to know about the many things that have happened … Your Yaya is a champion, she does her exercises to get better and soon she will be able to walk without help. Your
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14. Today, we are all going home
3 months ago today, listening to «You are not alone», we entered the Church of Sant Just to say goodbye to you, with all the honour, respect, love and affection you deserved.Surrounded by all of those who loved you, we saw hundreds of glassy eyes that hid the pain of losing you, a deafening silence
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13. Letter from your yayo
Dear Oscar: The days go by without you. Three months now and the memories of your life come and go endlessly. There are many in your 18 years. Many, very beautiful and very endearing. By remembering those memories and seeing you in the company of so many people, they give us an idea of why
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12. Three months without you
Although today is one more day without you, waking up knowing that a part of you is missing, just a Thursday, I can’t help but think that 3 months ago today I saw you leave on a stretcher and I never saw your little eyes again. They took away what was vital in our lives.
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11. Solitude
Solitude is difficult to explain, because imagining it is just an illusion. Understanding that this absence, this emptiness cannot be filled by anything, by nothing new; I will probably fill other voids, but not that one, the hole left by the shot to my heart cannot be filled. I know that my interior is changing.
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10. Homage. Always with us
Last Sunday on the 18th of June Oscar’s memory was honoured at the Sant Just football club. If I start describing what we felt during the day, I think I can summarize it with the following video: The sensitivity shown by this group of people pierced the skin of those of us who were there,
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09. A new day and life goes on.
Another day without you is an empty time where you think there is nothing worth saving for the memory. An inexplicable emptiness. You feel soulless, lifeless, without goals or future, even when surrounded by people. And yes, I know that life goes on, but how difficult it is without you. Without you, a faithful friend
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