Today is Sandra’s birthday, the one who made me a mother for the first time, the one who made me understand that my life would never again be the same from when I saw those blue eyes for the first time, on my belly.

My darling, looking forward to another year… what can I tell you? As on other occasions we have experienced a bittersweet sensation, the absence of your tete, his presence to give his opinion on what happened today, his jokes and him teasing you as only he knew how to do.

How can we encourage you to enjoy life if the time to laugh has stopped as if it were a wind-up clock. Darling, it’s time to move the hands and turn the screw until the ticking of our heart beats loudly because I have no doubt that Oscar, your tete, is still by your side.

Your impulse, your growth and learning of life that you are achieving is yours alone, but you should also feel happy because he is, without a doubt, your guardian, the one who watches over you closely, the one I see in your eyes when you narrow them. Sandra, seeing you smile is what best fills my emptiness. I know that Oscar is always by your side, he gives you serenity and accompanies you with that calmness that characterised him. You were his guardian when he was little, at school… now it’s his turn, do you feel him?

I hope and wish that we can continue creating moments together, like the concert we enjoyed together, thinking and feeling about him, and many more that we will experience; always together.

And now, more than ever, some sooner and some later, we will be leaving. When? we don’t know. Meanwhile, we will drink life in sips, enjoying its flavour when we feel like it, allowing ourselves to slow down and curl up when we feel like it too, and then picking up our pace and taking a run again when we feel the necessary strength.

Happy birthday my treasure, never stop shining, never stop illuminating the place when you arrive. We will always be four, remembering anecdotes together and creating new ones or respecting our silence when we get a lump in our throats.

Yes, he left our side in this world but not from our heart, which makes his soul feel very close, and that will never change.

For many more laps around the sun by your side.

I love you my darling, always together, always by your side.